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Mara stepped out of her home onto her drivewayโshe knew each stone by heart.
But it seemed that what she knew by heart had to be relearned.
Fog clouded the street beyond, giving the otherwise familiar street an unnatural white hue. It had rained just an hour before; the puddles caught the lamplight like unlived fragments of her memory.
She caught sight of herself in a puddle. It seemed to blinkโalmost a stranger.
And the familiar street feltโ
Different.
Unvisited.
A place unheard of.
Her life stretched before herโone that felt borrowed.
The university education that her parents couldnโt afford.
The job she passed up to care for her ailing parents.
She felt the tug of life just beyond her reachโso near, yet so far.
Each drop of rain seemed to whisper regret for what might have been; what could still be.
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She passed the park bench she and James used to sitโ
For hours.
Talking.
The masculine scent of his aftershave.
The armrest he had vandalised with Cupid hearts.
She passed the music store they used to frequentโand the piano his fingertips used to grace.
A virtuoso.
Her mother.
In bed, hooked to a respirator.
The windows of her mind opened to James boarding a plane at the airport.
Fixing a lingering gaze on her as he entered the boarding gate.
Another imageโodd.
Different.
Pulsing.
Of herself, following him.
Her mind veered back to the familiar streetโyet not.
A gust of wind, howling, urgent, pushing her in.
Drops of rain pelted the gray cobblestoneโ
The black umbrella.
One they used to laugh under on days like this.
She paused mid-step, tears drenching her cheeks.
Her mother.
Him.
Not both.
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She found herself back on the streetโ
Known.
Yet unknown.
The gray hues of the cobblestone were now a strange white.
The white ceramic floors of the university.
She passed a cafeโopen where the legal library should have been.
Music streamed from a windowโfrom a piano.
With her momโs cries of painโin sync.
Sheโd wanted to learn that.
Her mother.
In bed, hooked to a respirator.
Herself, in a nurseโs uniform, helping her sit up.
Her motherโs tears streamingโ
Down a relieved, smiling face.
The smells from the cafe teased her nostrils.
She was herself, walking.
Through the universityโs halls.
Carrying legal ledgers, laughing with friends from law school.
Nurse. Her mom.
Lawyer.
Her heartโyanked.
Spinning, overwhelmedโin both directions.
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She stopped at a puddle and gazed at herself.
In her nurseโs uniform, pressed neatly.
Herself again, in the cafeโs window.
Donning a judgeโs robes.
Both with raised right hands.
One mirrored the other.
Uncomfortable.
False.
Nurse.
Lawyer.
Not both.
Her heart yanked againโlanding in place with a soft thump.
Of knowing.
That she had chosen a path.
One she could not forgo.
That she had to continue walking.
She heard her motherโs breathing, now quiet.
Relieved.
Stable.
Together with laughter from the universityโs hallsโfrom herself, in a judgeโs robes.
Both soundsโpleasant.
Harmonious.
Mara the nurse..
The fiancรฉe who was.
All had to walk along that street.
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Mara stood on the pavement, the gray cobblestone she knew facing her.
In her nurseโs uniform, on the way to the hospital where her mum recovered in a ward.
Her face clear, smiling, in a puddle.
The lamplight grounded her feet firmly, pushing them forward.
In the cafe windowโherself, in judgeโs robes, waving a poignant goodbye.
Smilingโthrough tears.
The sound of her motherโs breathing reverberated calmly, pelting in rhythm with the raindrops on her umbrella.
She paused at another puddle.
Herself, in a judges robes, smiling.
Then James, in the airport lounge.
Staring.
She reached.
Then pulled back.
The plane had no seat for her.
Reached againโand withdrew.
Her heart yanked.
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