Parallel Lives

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

Mara stepped out of her home onto her drivewayโ€”she knew each stone by heart.

But it seemed that what she knew by heart had to be relearned.

Fog clouded the street beyond, giving the otherwise familiar street an unnatural white hue. It had rained just an hour before; the puddles caught the lamplight like unlived fragments of her memory.

She caught sight of herself in a puddle. It seemed to blinkโ€”almost a stranger.

And the familiar street feltโ€”

Different.

Unvisited.

A place unheard of.

Her life stretched before herโ€”one that felt borrowed.

The university education that her parents couldnโ€™t afford.

The job she passed up to care for her ailing parents.

She felt the tug of life just beyond her reachโ€”so near, yet so far.

Each drop of rain seemed to whisper regret for what might have been; what could still be.

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

She passed the park bench she and James used to sitโ€”

For hours.

Talking.

The masculine scent of his aftershave.

The armrest he had vandalised with Cupid hearts.

She passed the music store they used to frequentโ€”and the piano his fingertips used to grace.

A virtuoso.

Her mother.

In bed, hooked to a respirator.

The windows of her mind opened to James boarding a plane at the airport.

Fixing a lingering gaze on her as he entered the boarding gate.

Another imageโ€”odd.

Different.

Pulsing.

Of herself, following him.

Her mind veered back to the familiar streetโ€”yet not.

A gust of wind, howling, urgent, pushing her in.

Drops of rain pelted the gray cobblestoneโ€”

The black umbrella.

One they used to laugh under on days like this.

She paused mid-step, tears drenching her cheeks.

Her mother.

Him.

Not both.

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

She found herself back on the streetโ€”

Known.

Yet unknown.

The gray hues of the cobblestone were now a strange white.

The white ceramic floors of the university.

She passed a cafeโ€”open where the legal library should have been.

Music streamed from a windowโ€”from a piano.

With her momโ€™s cries of painโ€”in sync.

Sheโ€™d wanted to learn that.

Her mother.

In bed, hooked to a respirator.

Herself, in a nurseโ€™s uniform, helping her sit up.

Her motherโ€™s tears streamingโ€”

Down a relieved, smiling face.

The smells from the cafe teased her nostrils.

She was herself, walking.

Through the universityโ€™s halls.

Carrying legal ledgers, laughing with friends from law school.

Nurse. Her mom.

Lawyer.

Her heartโ€”yanked.

Spinning, overwhelmedโ€”in both directions.

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

She stopped at a puddle and gazed at herself.

In her nurseโ€™s uniform, pressed neatly.

Herself again, in the cafeโ€™s window.

Donning a judgeโ€™s robes.

Both with raised right hands.

One mirrored the other.

Uncomfortable.

False.

Nurse.

Lawyer.

Not both.

Her heart yanked againโ€”landing in place with a soft thump.

Of knowing.

That she had chosen a path.

One she could not forgo.

That she had to continue walking.

She heard her motherโ€™s breathing, now quiet.

Relieved.

Stable.

Together with laughter from the universityโ€™s hallsโ€”from herself, in a judgeโ€™s robes.

Both soundsโ€”pleasant.

Harmonious.

Mara the nurse..

The fiancรฉe who was.

All had to walk along that street.

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

Mara stood on the pavement, the gray cobblestone she knew facing her.

In her nurseโ€™s uniform, on the way to the hospital where her mum recovered in a ward.

Her face clear, smiling, in a puddle.

The lamplight grounded her feet firmly, pushing them forward.

In the cafe windowโ€”herself, in judgeโ€™s robes, waving a poignant goodbye.

Smilingโ€”through tears.

The sound of her motherโ€™s breathing reverberated calmly, pelting in rhythm with the raindrops on her umbrella.

She paused at another puddle.

Herself, in a judges robes, smiling.

Then James, in the airport lounge.

Staring.

She reached.

Then pulled back.

The plane had no seat for her.

Reached againโ€”and withdrew.

Her heart yanked.

๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜๐ŸŒ’๐ŸŒ“๐ŸŒ”๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒ–๐ŸŒ—๐ŸŒ˜

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